I'm somewhere in between pissed, frustrated, and dead tired.

I'll start with the easy to explain one. Tired - I was up at 6 this morning to be in work at 8 to hang a bunch of stuff and do a bunch of manual labor before the store opened and the sale began. Following that, I did not get home till 7 and I can barely keep my eyes open, but I'm starving and would like to see my husband awake today. That and I have some emotional games going one that are using up alot of energy.

Frustrated - all the stuff I did last night and this morning to get ready for the sale seem to be completely futile. My, let's just call him lovely, DM decided that we needed to completely reorganize the store. And he decided this at 6 this night, expecting everything to be done before we open for business tomorrow. And I bless the two girls working tonight because without them I would be getting to work tomorrow at 8 again. I hate feeling like I did everything for no particular reason.

Pissed - Let's start with a bit of background that I don't know if I ever covered. My manager is 20, seperated from her husband, trying to get a divorce, not really financially capable, dating her husband's cousin, trying to get an apartment with him, and 20. The 20 part is important because, and I don't know if you remember being that age, haven't yet been that age, or are still that age, most of the time they are impulsive, lacking in some aspects of maturity (I cannot spell, do not hold it against me), resist taking advice, and don't often think things through. I understand that not every 20 yr old is like this. I'm probably only refering to a few of them. But I am definatly refering to this one.

OK, so my manager has got some problems going on in her life. And some of them are huge problems. They are not problems that one can easily deal with without a really good support system. They are not problems that any 20 yr old should be dealing with. (Actually, I'm doubting that anyone SHOULD be dealing with them.) And because she is so young and dealing with such massive issues, it is very hard for her to keep her personal life and her work life seperate. She cannot (and many people cannot) turn off the thoughts about the problems and just focus on work. Which kinda means that when things are really bad, everyone knows that. When something doesn't go perfectly at work, it brings her down even further. She begins to take out her frustrations on others. And I know that she tries not too, but she does. And there is no way to be like "Sweetie, stop pouting because that lady didn't speak to you." Because she does pout. For the rest of the day. Little things take massive tolls. It wears on everyone around her.

So that whole me getting in early this morning thing. That was too finish setting up. Mostly because I told her that I could handle it last night. She needs a break. Like a vacation break. So I try to make things a little easier, give her less to focus on. Because she gets really grouchy when too much is going on, and often times gets physically sick. So last night, I didn't get everything done. I knew I wasn't going to. I had some wonderful help. But it wasn't possible. There was too much to do. So I came in early to finish it. However, so did she. It was her day off. She did not need to be there. She came in and saw everything wasn't finished and became instantly moody. As she left (like an hour later, after becoming very grouchy) she made a comment about the only thing I should have had to do this morning was hang signs. And theoretically, yes. But there was no actual way that was going to happen. No way in hell. I got no thanks for doing this. No wow, you guys got alot done last night and still managed to do quite abit in sales. I was made to feel like I didn't do my job, and at some point I must have been goofing off and not working.

Such a bunch of shit.

I know things are going bad, but I do not need to be the brunt (sp?) of it. I do not appreciate it. It made me so angry. I spent the next 20 min (until I actually dealt with a customer and had a good sale) pissy and stewing it over.

I know I am not the only one there who is dealing with this.

One girl told her that Pac Sun had Oscar the Grouch shirts on sale.

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I'm listening to: The Wild West Show - Big and Rich
I'm reading this: my mail
I'm burning this: still on Lemon Zest and Christmas Cookie.

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